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  1. Im so tired of fighting and lying to myself and others.

    Im so tired of fighting. I gave my self to my higher power. I have let go. Only my higher power can rid me of this disease. There is no other choice. No other cure.
    I have let go of lying. I dont want it anymore. When I think something I sometimes have to consider the fact i might be lying to myself. When I start believing that lie, there is danger. Must let go. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. ...

    Updated 06-18-2017 at 12:01 AM by Grraver

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    Recovery
  2. 7 days sober Red alert moment

    7 days sober.

    I dont exactly remember the date, but last week when i was a few days sober after going to meeting after meeting after meeting I had a complete brain meltdown.
    All of a sudden my brain said "Red Alert, Red Alert" With a big honking red alert sign IN my head. It felt like my brain was shutting down. Shrinking. I wanted to die right there and then. But by the grace of God, somehow I was able to call my sponsor. He saved me, and so did God (only as I understand ...

    Updated 06-18-2017 at 12:01 AM by Grraver

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    Recovery
  3. Going to AA meetings.

    Quote Originally Posted by Grraver View Post
    Thankyou so much everyone.
    I feel actual real gratitude.

    My alcoholic mind wants to say and says: "No, youre ridiculous, all your AA is crap, the U is crap and you suck Thomas. Go drink. Its better that way."

    But now I have some tools to deal with that, a good sponsor (fucking made of angel hair and platinum of the most pure quality). Alcoholism is a progressive disease, so It changes day by day. Moment by moment. *edit* 7 days ago I was absolutely destroyed
    ...

    Updated 06-18-2017 at 12:01 AM by Grraver

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    Recovery
  4. I've been updating my Painting Blog.

    Quote Originally Posted by williamsond View Post
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  5. another painting blog

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